I’m still here.

I’m still here.

He’s still here.

We’re still here.

*swallows back lump in throat and exhales*

…. This last week was . . . . A-lot. It’s always hard when someone you care about and love is hurting. It is magnified when it’s your baby. He is doing better. We are out of the P.I.C.U (Pediatric Intensive Care Unit), Isolation, and yes, even the hospital! I appreciate those of you who prayed on his behalf. Thank you.

I am thankful and relieved he is doing so much better. The past few months we have had a go of it health wise in our house, but God is seeing us through it. It really is a wonder, so often when in the midst of a crisis (and in the day to day too), I miss things, but looking back in retrospect, I can see some of the ways that God has had his hand on us. Sometimes it just blows my mind that He cares. It’s utterly amazing.

Oh how I wish I could convey what I’ve experienced and what I’m feeling with words right now. I have written the entirety of this post through a steady stream of tears and a runny nose.  Oh well.




Can you keep a secret?


This blog is my own. No one that I (at least that I am aware of) have I met or that I know in person, knows of this blogs existence. My husband is aware I am working on a project, but I believe he thinks I am writing a book or a series of short stories. I struggled for a few days when I was deciding on what my outlet would be, if I should tell him, If it would be wrong not to. After all, secrets can destroy a marriage and I have always believed that honesty is the best policy.  But I think what I have come to realize that there are a few things that one may not need to be transparent about. If you are not being dishonest, malicious or hurtful /harmful with it then perhaps it isn’t “bad.” Some secrets can actually be good. Like a surprise party or an encouraging note sent to you from an anonymous friend, or whither or not you have a bowel movement when you go to the bathroom. Not the type of secret I would want or need to know. Thank you very much.

A little mystery in life is good.

It is this unknown that sparks excitement within us. That gives us a tiny shiver, up our spine. The adrenaline rush that awakens us. Like when we fall in love or ride a roller coaster.

In this case a secret has been beneficial both mentally and emotionally. I can tell even in the past few days that this has been good not only for me, but for my family as well. This one little thing for myself has been extremely cathartic. Maybe not right this moment as I am fighting to keep my eyes open and fingers moving to type this out, lol, *smiles* …but overall it’s quite wonderful.